err ok asal over sangat -.-
Okay ni gambar Shafiq dengan nenek and atuk and Fahrul (abang) dia. K bukan nak cerita pasal diorg actually but nak cerita pasal boyfriend saya yg sorg tu je. Yang comel tu. Haha. Em.
Okay kitorg mula2 kenal dekat bbm, ada la cara kitorg kenal tu macam mana malas nak cerita kat sini sebenarnya haha tapi sekeras-kerasnya saya nyatakan saya bukan amik bbpin dia dari broadcast messages or whatsoever yang berkaitan dengan benda alah tu begitu jugak dengan dia. Mula2 dia wujud dalam contact bbm saya, saya tak amik kisah pun pasal dia sebab time tu I'm not in a flirting mood and my concentration was only on my studies and in comforting myself in my own skin. And also because of my previous 7-mths relationship that didn't work out so I decided to call it off and take a break for myself.
But beneath my joyful laughter and the big smiles on my face, I still feel shattered. I want someone who can find me and can tell that I'm just faking everything. I need somebody to know that deep inside of me, I'm just waiting to be found. I hid all of that under my skin because of what? Because I don't want anybody to see me hurting. I don't wanna be seen as a weak girl. That's why I acted a little like 'Oh, I'm so over it, I can stand on my own feet'.. No, fuck that. I'm not that strong-hearted badass. I'm so weak, trust me. I'm really, really a fragile little girl. For 9 months I've been holding back my feelings cause I'm scared. When I met a boy, I didn't put high hopes on him because I don't wanna feel the pain that I felt when I was left by Nashriq several years ago.
That's how scared and paranoid I was. But it's like there's a light at the end of the tunnel when I met this cute boy, Shafiq. He brings up back the joy that I need. I met him when he was broken-hearted, too. We both need that 'one thing' desperately. That's what we call love. Hehe *geli lak. Dia lah penyeri hidup saya masa tu, dia ada cerita pasal kehidupan dia yang sangat mencabar when he was a teenage boy and that kind of story makes me feel like I want to be that girl who could cure, even a little, the struggling life that he had. Haaahaaa cute kan? :P
So there we go, a lovebirds that still trying to know each other. Yeap, there's a lot of tension in this long-distance relationship but it doesn't matter, actually. We'll find a way to work it out. And I'll stay closer to him someday :)
And for my beloved heartbeat, I love you sayang. I mintak maaf sebab I tau I memang selalu marah-marah u, merajuk tak tentu pasal, maki-maki u, tinggi suara dekat u, biadap dekat u, I'll try to change k syg. I nak u tau yang I love you so much, together forever aite syg? :)
masa ni dia mengantuk tapi dia kena jugak skype sebab
the next day dia dah nak pegi rumah abang dia :D
second met hehe muah :*
